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warning: long post but not rant

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:09:55 +0800

so, usually im not someone who feel things strongly in fact i dont feel much at all. theres like a barrier between me and my emotions. actually that is inaccurate because im not even sure if i hv any emotions. recently my supervisor at my part time job told me that one of the staff was pregnant and was considering abortion she didnt want the baby and was coming to work as normal trying to hide it until she couldnt anymore. ok this is hard for me to admit but i only felt a slight concern at that time. i wanted to feel MORE like idk more shock more worry more anything. when someone cry im not even curious or concerned nada zero nothing. i feel like such a cold bitch sometimes. i havent visited my grandma in close to 3 months for no reason at all. we have nothing to talk about. i think she hates my dad. my mom hates her. i wonder where i fit in all this its easier to just be away. BUT sometimes i feel intense spurts of rage. once i was so angry i trashed my phone. i will keep recounting the incident leading up to it for WEEKS even when i try hard to forget abt it. my mother annoys me for no reason at all like somehow i just dont like her very much and so its always harder to keep calm when this rage comes. usually with her it starts out as irritation and impatience and just escalates. with other people its different, just a stray word or tone can set me off. is there something wrong with me? am i just a heartless bitch? i wish i didnt feel anything at all. its so tiring to pretend you feel something when u dont and feeling guilty abt it. if i cant feel happiness, concern etc then i dont want to feel shit like regret, shame embarrassment too. i dont want to feel anything. am i the only to think these things? is there more people out there like this too. i would wish so. but i hope not.

hate not being able to sleep even though i worked a 11hr shift today. im dead tired but i just cant FUCKING SLEEP! it must be punishment for eating this shitload of food.

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:35:00 +0800

im just a fat ass and im never gonna be thin.

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:33:00 +0800

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Sat, 18 May 2013 23:16:06 +0800

spiriteli: xdisposable: .. ❀ indie blog ❀

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:15:27 +0800

spiriteli:

xdisposable:

..

❀ indie blog ❀

pretzelcoatlus: rakaakakka-fili-kili-bowtie: danyul-and-filup: princess-hardy: what if we are...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:14:40 +0800

pretzelcoatlus:

rakaakakka-fili-kili-bowtie:

danyul-and-filup:

princess-hardy:

what if we are reincarnated when we die and when we’re babies we still remember who we used to be and that’s why we cry so much as babies, because of how our old lives are gone ..and the older we get we start to forget who we used to be in a previous life.

well fuck

#And the calm and quiet babies who don’t cry are people who had really bad lives and are just grateful for a second chance

all right didnt end up eating instant noodles all day :) 1/2 pack kimchi cheese flavor ramyeon with...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:13:17 +0800

all right didnt end up eating instant noodles all day :)

1/2 pack kimchi cheese flavor ramyeon with egg and kimchi

salmon handroll with shaved cucumber

unagi handroll with lettuce

2.5 cup honey black tea

milk tea with black and white pearl

steamed pork belly with sour shrimp sauce.

12 Hour Fast

Sat, 18 May 2013 14:39:34 +0800

silver-sirens:

I started the Twelve Hour Fast thing yesterday. No eating past 7:00 Pm or Before 7:00 Am. That way you technically fast for half the year ^^.

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Sat, 18 May 2013 00:08:23 +0800

i just realised i will be eating instant noodles all day tomorrow fuck.

Sat, 18 May 2013 00:07:56 +0800

potato vermicelli and veg stir fry. honey black tea peach fruit tea with passionfruit and peach...

Sat, 18 May 2013 00:06:38 +0800

potato vermicelli and veg stir fry.

honey black tea

peach fruit tea with passionfruit and peach topping and konjac jelly

1 fisherman’s lozenge.

well ok i guess considering i was working 2 jobs today and totally exhausted

swinq: oliviasimons: baconat0r: This is a ridiculously...

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:58:33 +0800

swinq:

oliviasimons:

baconat0r:

This is a ridiculously powerful picture.

reblog this twice, to make sure you really see it.

This is so frustrating

fuck man this makes me so angry and sad

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Thu, 16 May 2013 00:57:25 +0800

dink-182: 🍌

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:54:22 +0800

dink-182:

🍌

thenaebyrd777: inhalers: tips for flirting: carve your number into a potato and roll it towards...

Sun, 12 May 2013 14:17:25 +0800

thenaebyrd777:

inhalers:

tips for flirting: carve your number into a potato and roll it towards eligible females you wish to court with

the fact that this would work on me has me concerned

Sandara Park’s eyes.

Sun, 12 May 2013 14:13:07 +0800

Sandara Park’s eyes.

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Sat, 11 May 2013 14:16:11 +0800

spiriteli: ❀ indie blog ❀

Sat, 11 May 2013 14:13:20 +0800

spiriteli:

❀ indie blog ❀

Hello! Are you from Singapore?

Thu, 09 May 2013 22:14:12 +0800

yes :) you?

thebingelessbeginner: While it’s taking place, binging is so fun. I love it. I wish I could unlearn...

Sat, 04 May 2013 18:54:16 +0800

thebingelessbeginner:

While it’s taking place, binging is so fun. I love it.
I wish I could unlearn that.

The post-binge period is wrought with shame and disgust, but somehow the knowledge of that never overpowers my desire to binge. The euphoria’s so brief, but so good.
I wish I had never discovered it. Now I feel like I’ll always associate gorging myself with some sort of pleasure. Even if it’s fleeting. I’ll always yearn for it. At least a little.